Lately

So, Matthew just suggested to me that we have a "Matthew-Becky family reunion and only invite ourselves and our kids (which are our descendants). He talked about sending invites to ourselves and making signs everywhere. Just so you know, he has a fever and has for two days. We all have fevers, except for Nathan, who appropriately is just as active as ever when we're laying down trying to recover from this sickness. It's some kind of flu. Aches, pains and apparently strange family reunion hallucinations.

Our house stinks from the loads of dishes in our sink, but it's better than yesterday because my sister Laura drove down to bring us dinner, do our dishes, and give our kids dinner while Matthew and I laid on the couch like a bunch of leeches--sick leeches though. Matthew hardly every gets sick...really. Laura also bought us two freezer meals to eat this week and bought us paper plates and silverware to help with our current dishes crisis. We were really thankful.

We are still sick today. But I think we might be getting better! Matthew skipped work again to be sick, but he is still the main one taking care of the kids.

Other news is that I am pregnant. 11 weeks I guess. For those of you who I often call, I apologize for not calling this time. It's been kind of crazy. I haven't been to the doctor yet. My appointment is for tomorrow, but since I have a fever today still I will probably not be well enough tomorrow to go. And I probably won't find out until thirteen weeks or so if my baby is alive. Seriously, I would like to hear the heartbeat!

This pregnancy has been different. I've been down on the couch the last five weeks being sick. However, I have not been as sick as with Mary. But this time I throw up more if I move, so I have to hardly do anything. And I have lost weight. This is the first time I've lost weight in my pregnancy. Maybe someday with having no flu, and not feeling sick, I will start to gain weight again. I am not worried at all about this though.

As for my feelings about being pregnant again...I really am excited to have a baby! That is if it is alive. (I am never sure until you feel the little thing kick or hear that heartbeat) So, I will feel better when that happens. But I am not that stressed about it. I have perfect confidence the right thing for our family will happen--whatever that is. I think getting pregnant this time was perhaps the hardest thing I have ever decided to do. And I had serious concerns about my ability to handle being sick again and if I could physically handle this trial after going through much suffering in the last few years. It was like I could hear clearly in my mind and heart what I was supposed to do. I hadn't even asked! That wasn't fair! Cheap! I tried to talk myself out of it. But I still had no doubt we were supposed to. So, here we go. (And I don't tell the whole world about my thoughts. That's why this blog is private! So I can only tell some people my thoughts...like you.)

Besides that....I am still working on school...a never ending project it seems. But this week I will turn in my last 2 assignments for my senior english class then I can go on to my final class-my capstone class! It's been a little harder being sick, but I feel that getting it done is manageable.

Bye. Have a fantastic day!